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Unfinished Chapters book with Kelsey Poe chapter
Survivor's guilt
Woman with sunglasses
Kelsey walking dog with friend
Sanderson and Kelsey Poe wedding photo whisper in her ear
mourning while moving forward

Mourning While Moving Forward

I've been part of a widow's group in Austin since January of 2014. I was apprehensive about joining a counseling group, not because of ...

Sunnyland garden in Palm Springs


There is a strategy to opening doors in life and creating options, but with it comes an incredible amount of faith in oneself. I ...

Sanderson and Kelsey wedding day


One thing that sets losing a spouse apart from other losses is the notion that love can be found again. Far too often have I been told ...

Berlin marathon race

Running a Marathon

Backpacking abroad, gaining catharsis while grieving, or literally running a marathon all have a similar effect on the body: exhaustion. As I return from my trip abroad, I’ve had time to finally process the life changing experience of visiting Sanderson’s old stomping-grounds. I gained closure ...

courage profile image of Kelsey


I wrote this one while in Paris three weeks ago, but just didn’t post it right away. I guess I was too busy having fun! And my apologies go out to my friends and family who are just now receiving their post cards (with US stamps). Oops ;) Traveling Alone Traveling alone is an act of courage in and ...

Paris map and croissant


[caption id="attachment_118" align="alignleft" width="300"] Getting lost in a Paris neighborhood[/caption]   The fear of being lost has been so pervasive in my life that it has debilitated me. As a child, I was so fearful of being lost in the grocery store, I would hold tightly to the ...

Unfolding Memories

This post is for a friend of mine who lost her husband 7 months after Sanderson died. She looked at me the other day with hope that she could soon be in a place where I am, where the memories of the old life come flooding back and she’s strong enough to take them in. It gets better, my ...